Last night, I think I fought with myself. I found this to be common because I do this before I go to sleep. I wonder to myself while I'm doing this if I'm fighting demons in myself. I wonder because I don't believe in god but I don't totally believe he doesn't exist (I only leave that thought in my head to keep myself from thinking I'm crazy). This wasn't like some normal fight in your head type of moral issue, this was me all over my bed shifting in a odd positions and I even shed a tear. I know why I do this and all I feel like telling you guys is that its because of problems in my life I have no control of.